Did you WANT to have Twins?

Since my first pregnancy was a twin pregnancy, I don't think I thought about wanting or not wanting to have twins. Scott and I struggled to have children and had to resort to in vitro to begin our family. We were so excited to become parents and we thought that the two-for-one deal was a great way to do it. But after a "not-as-I-planned" emergency c-section and babies hooked up to tubes and monitors and the unrelenting demands of caring for such fragile lives, I desparately struggled during … [Read more...]

We Bought a Piano!

My husband is the musician in the family. He plays guitar and sings. He used to direct a church choir. And, when we were first married, he would follow me around the house playing his guitar and singing songs--sometimes serious ones but mostly funny reworks. I have to admit that the last part might sound romantic, but it was actually annoyingly funny (really, who follows some to the laundry room with their guitar?). We've been siting in the VERY FRONT row at church for most of the year. The … [Read more...]

10 Things to Remember When your Babies are in the NICU

  Seeing our newborn babies in the NICU was probably one of the hardest things I've ever endured. I had spent months planning this perfect delivery; envisioned taking my two darlings home; and, continuing on our happy little way. So, when I delivered my twins at 33 weeks, my dream of "how-it-was-going-to-be" turned into a confusing, and with the magnesium drip I was on, almost surreal experience. Looking back now, I wish I had had someone to guide me through my first foray into … [Read more...]

I Don’t Really Enjoy Babies. . .or this is Harder than I ever Imagined

  I am the oldest of five children. I have four younger brothers. I was a teacher. I have been around babies and children my entire life.  Imagine my shock when I discovered after my twins were born that I wasn’t enjoying the infancy stage. The guilt. . .the angst. . .the fear that I made truly the worse mistake of my life and there was no turning back. Not that I didn’t love my babies but caring for them in those early, sleep-deprived, intensive days, I struggled mightily. I … [Read more...]